*sigh*

I really do try to focus on the positive, the funny, the twisted and the weird.  And I suppose that in retrospect, I will, but tonight?  I just feel lonely.  

I'm not really sad, per se.  My kids are all home, I got to go out to dinner with my parents to a restaurant I've wanted to try for a long time and I have successfully uploaded "9 1/2 Weeks" to my IPhone for my viewing pleasure later this evening ^^groucho eyebrows^^ (and may I just say-there is something very mysteriously intimate about watching a movie on an IPhone?) although I am wondering at the wisdom of watching it in this frame of mind.  Might just end up being depressing. Because despite the family and friends and food and frivolity and fun, I am sorely lacking in some FORTNER.  Boy. Hoss.  Dood.  Bonehead.  Scrote.  My Scrote.  Sometimes this working way far away chit sucks.

Just sayin'.